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Hey so like,

I know that in the morning I wasn't being really responsive and stuff and I didn't want you to think that I was upset at you personally or anything for leaving. It did seem spontaneous and I wasn't expecting it, but like I said at the moment, I can respect your decision and this isn't an essay where I'm begging you to come back because I know that DARP isn't cutting it for you right now and that you just personally don't feel okay both with yourself and with dealing with no more Soc.

It's just that the news came after a particularly hard morning where I was already getting ragged on by my older sister and so to come back on and see that you decided to leave made it more heartbreaking to me. Obviously, it would've been heartbreaking for me either way, but basically you leaving made me realize several thing: that I unexpectedly got attached to your presence, how lonely I've become as a person and how I'm really not contributing to anything to my life.

I don't know if I've told you, but I decided to take off the first semester of my first year at community college because I personally didn't feel ready for it. I was really depressed the final month or so of my senior year, and I didn't even want to put in the effort to graduate. If it wasn't for my mom basically telling me that she would literally drag me to graduation herself, I would've have put in the effort to ensure that I even met that basic requirement of modern life.

One of the main reasons why I didn't want to leave DARP was because I've left DARP before and I know that most of the time friends that were made on there end up drifting apart due to not really having DARP as the thing that they have in common.

Now that I've had time to think things over, I feel like I can respect your decision more. And honestly, I kinda feel like it was a blessing in disguise because just last night, I was getting really...the word I want to use is upset, but it's not as serious as the word upset comes across as being. I want to say more....like a wilted flower, because a lot of my characters like Fontaine and Jungkook are really underdeveloped and I didn't want to admit to myself that I only really made some of them on a whim or without really developing their personalities through.

I didn't know Soc too well personally other than how we communicated through the Insomnia group chat, but her leaving still affected me because we were starting to get to know each other better and I really did mourn the loss of her as an amazing person and what could've been a blossoming friendship.

Even if you think that you're going to bother me, please bother me anyway. Even if I'm not going to understand without a Google Doc's worth of background, I still want to be there for you no matter what.

I love you,

If this is withdrawal, then rather than become addicted again I need to learn to survive without.

There was a lot of things that I didn't want to admit about myself, that I only did once you left.

I don't ever want you to be a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere. I'm probably going to bother you more after this because even though we don't have DARP connecting us anymore, that doesn't mean we can't form a bond on something that isn't as fragile as Wikia.

Hi <3

It's been several days since you've left DARP, and there were a lot of emotions that came with your announcement and you leaving afterwards. However, I've always been someone that takes awhile to truly figure out and piece through my emotions. I initially wrote something on the same day that you left, but I decided to truly write out everything after a few days to really be crystal clear about what I want to say.